Life with Jude Law was so crazy, his ex-wife landed in a psych ward, she reveals in a new book.
Sadie Frost, who split with the Hollywood star in 2003, is due to release her autobiography “Crazy Days” next month.
In it, she reveals the troubled times during their marriage and details her struggle with depression, the Daily Mail reports.
Frost, 45, and Law, 37, met 20 years ago when Frost was a married mother and Law was not yet a household name.
“I knew that by even entertaining thoughts of Jude, I was jeopardising an idyllic home life, the most secure relationship I’d ever had,” she writes, in an excerpt published by the Daily Mail. “I crushed my unwelcome ideas about Jude, but it wasn’t easy.”
But she couldn’t suppress the feelings for long – Frost ultimately left her husband and moved in with Law.
“The force of love I felt for Jude and his intense ambition made me feel out of control,” she writes. “I felt it was my fate to spend the rest of my life with Jude.”
Frost, also an actress, says she slipped into a downward emotional spiral during her pregnancy with their first child together.
“Unease was pulling me down,” she writes, “making me feel low and lost.”
After giving birth, her emotional struggle got worse. “Eventually I wanted to press the self-destruct button,” she recalls.
One day, feeling guilty for spending a night out on the town, Frost says she felt compelled to hurt herself.
“I was sitting at my dressing table, not feeling anything – just numb,” she says.
“I watched my hand slowly pick up a pair of scissors. It was as if I was being sucked down lower into the chair and the scissors seemed to be drawn to my arm. I appeared to have cut myself. Blood dripped down my arm. There was no sense of panic within me – I just felt empty.”
Frost says she was treated for her crippling post-partum depression, but struggled with it again when she gave birth to the couple’s second child in 2000.
Despite their glamorous A-list lifestyle, the couple’s life together collapsed under the emotional strain of Frost’s condition.
In the memoir, she describes the moment she realized her marriage was over, during a trip to Thailand.
“Right away I knew something was wrong,” she writes. “I knew it was over, the way he looked at me… I asked him if he loved me but he didn’t need to reply – I knew the answer. The moment had arrived and I knew the relationship with the man I loved was over.”
After they split, Frost spent time in a psychiatric ward, which describes as “as bad as I’d imagined.”
But now, seven years later, she is at peace with herself.
“I don’t regret the past, nor do I dwell on it,” she says, explaining she has “come through and out the other end, into the light.”
The highly anticipated memoir was the subject of an intense legal battle last month, as Law attempted to block his ex-wife from publishing images of their children. The former couple finally agreed to terms for publication, the Guardian reported, and Frost reportedly removed the images and select passages that Law had also taken issue with.
